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I want to start this post off with something that I left off in my last Big City Big Lights post.
New York is about endings and new beginnings. It’s about refusing to settle for anything less than what I feel I’m owed, deserve and want. It’s the courage to say goodbye to the bad, knowing full and well how much it’s going to hurt to lose the good that accompanies it. It’s forcing myself to walk away from that which I’ve grown to depend on having by my side. It’s about clinging to my belief that love truly is the most important thing despite it all… and finding comfort in the knowledge that I gave it openly and willingly.
It’s the pursuit of both internal and external balance. It’s about approaching my fears instead of fleeing from them. It’s about that feeling of wonder and awe when you see the Manhattan skyline. It’s about proving things to myself. It’s about living in the moment without losing sight of the future.
As most of you know I went to NYC back in March. I never really wrote a full blog post on my visit, but I did share some photos here.
That trip was the most meaningful trip to NYC that I have taken. I fully realized that this is the city where I belong and there is no need to wast anymore time day dreaming about it. I came home refreshed and with a new plan in mind.
One thing that I realized was that last year when I was saying I was moving to NYC, I was not quite ready to do so. I was not ready to let go of everything that I had in my life at that time. I was not ready to say goodbye to San Francisco yet.
When you know, you know. And I knew the first day being in NYC in March I was ready. Really READY. I was ready to take this adventure. I was ready to say goodbye to SF and goodbye to everything that was holding me down.
Since this month is about refocusing-- I am sitting down today and writing out a NEW plan of action. There is no need for me not to live the life I want and the dreams I have.
NEW YORK CITY HERE I COME!
I have said this before, but I will say it again... this city has a spell on me.