“We’ve been through so much with previous relationships that we start a new one with a cocktail of warnings for the other person. “You should know that I have abandonment issues, and trust issues, and I’ve been cheated on before, and I’m sensitive about my time being spoken for, and I don’t like public affection…” The relationship is consumed with navigating all the mistakes that people have made before. And we don’t know how to separate an innocent intention from a hostile one. What if we could just reset with each new person? We wouldn’t anticipate the fall. But that’s not possible. I think the trick is to give someone the benefit of the doubt and check yourself before you react to something. Most people have good intentions, and want to make you happy. Most people who hurt us in the past regret it and wish they could have done better. I know I wish I had done better. I went to a wedding where the reverend said, “Marriage is about being a professional forgiver.” If we don’t forgive people in the past, there wont be any room for someone new to make any mistakes. And while I’m definitely perfect and not capable of any, I’ve heard that there are people out there who make lots of mistakes, like, all the time.”
5. I have been going back and rereading my own blog. I wanted to get a feel for what I was blogging about and I wanted to make sure that is the path that I want to continue.
I have learn so far that taking a break has helped me see where I want to go with my blog. There are going to me some changes coming soon and I hope that one day I can be a full time blogger. Blogging is what I love doing.
If you are unfamiliar with "One Little Word" then read this.
I decided that I would going to join in picking one word for this year. I picked the word focus because this year I want to focus on me and my dreams.
Last year was a really hard for me (I think it was for a lot of people.) I lost track of what I really wanted and I stopped caring. Even though I had some hard times in 2011 it did not break me--I see that now.
I want to spend 2012 making dreams come true. I want to stop sitting around waiting for good things to happen for me. I know if I want something, I need to work hard and go get it.