Dear Lu,
As I sit here writing this letter to you there are tears running down my face. I cannot believe that you are no longer here. I cannot believe that I will never hear your voice again. I cannot believe that I lost my best friend today.
I wanted to write you a letter to tell you how much I love you, but I do not even know where to start. This has to be one of the hardest things that I have had to go through. I guess I will start with... I love you. You have been my best friend for a very long time and we have so many amazing memories from over the years.
1999 last year of high school: We were sitting outside out art class talking about tattoos and piercing. I said that I would never get anything pierced and you said you would never get a tattoo. Fast-forward 10 years, you have two half sleeves and your back tattooed and I had my belly pierced (took out 1 week after I got it done.) I did however; have my nose pierced for few years.
The time you fell with your blue jacket on: I think this would only be funny to us, but man, it was FUNNY! You had one of those puffy coats on and your hands were in the pockets. We were coming out of the store when you fell down. I looked at you on the ground and started to laugh because you never took your hands out of the pockets to break your fall. Lu, you know I would never laugh if you were hurt ;)
Your mean cat: That cat you had in high school (cannot remember her name. Fluffy?) She was the meanest cat in the whole world and only liked you. She would always attack me whenever I was at your house. I would make you keep her out of your room at night because I was so afraid to fall asleep with her in the room.
That little voice: Whenever I was feeling down or whenever you wanted to make me laugh you would talk to me in the crazy voice you made up. I should not say crazy because it was cute. It reminded me of Bobby from Bobby's World. You would call me up and say "Hello Bibianna"
Do not get hurt in San Francisco: You came to visit me in San Francisco a few years ago and you got hurt the first night here. We were out at a bar drinking with my boyfriend (at the time) and his friends just having a good time. We walked to the bar because I live only a few blocks away. I am not sure whose idea it was to do this (I bet mine,) but we decided to jump over some planters. We got to one planter and I said, “I bet you can’t jump over that one” and you said “ha! Just give me a running start” You jumped over the planter and hurt your ankle and you still thought it was a good idea to run the rest of the way to my house. The next morning you woke and your ankle was very bruised and we had to go to urgent care because you could not walk. As we were waiting to see the doctor, you told me that one of your students told you right before you left not to get hurt on vacation and I sent you back home with crutches. Once we got back, to my house, you could not find your shoe and I had to go all the way back to the hospital to get your shoe because you left it there. For the rest of your trip we had to stay inside my house and watch movies.
Is that Celine Dion: One Christmas when we were in high school my sister-in-law got me Celine Dion’s new CD (for the record I have no idea why she thought I would like it.) I came to pick you up at your cousins house (I think) and you get in the car and said “is that Celine Dion?” and started laughing at me. To this day I swear that I did not want that CD and you swear that I was singing along . Oh! You took that CD out and put in one of our favorites at the time a Bob Marley CD.
Oh, Sport: OMG! Remember the first time you drove my car (a CRX) that we called SPORT? You still lived across the street from my school, you asked me for a ride somewhere, and I said “yes as long as you drive”. I however forgot to tell you that I did not have power steering , when you went to go turn you could not and drove up the curb. We both looked at each other and started laughing. I hated driving my car, and I would always make you drive and even park my car for me at school.
You will forever be in my heart and I will never forget you.
I love you with all that I am and I know you felt the same about me. I miss you already, Lu.
xoxoxo,
Bibianna
I'm so sorry for your lost u.u If I loose my best friend, I would go crazy.
Be strong, alright?
Posted by: Nastia | July 12, 2011 at 08:48 PM
I am so sorry for you loss. My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my thoughts.
Posted by: Brandi | July 12, 2011 at 08:50 PM
Im sorry to see these cute post that carries such a sad new, I know you don't wanna hear how everything will be ok and that you'll look back with a smile instead of a tear but you will. I've lost 3 friends over the past 9 yrs and I know how bad it can hurt and I know how hard it is to deal with it. I just hope you can take it as a inspiring tool and dedicate her the best future moments of your life. A warm hug in such times!
Posted by: Miss Lou | July 12, 2011 at 09:56 PM
this is so terrible - i'm so sorry... My prayers are with you..
Posted by: Michelle | July 12, 2011 at 10:22 PM
<3 x 1,000
Posted by: Quiet Violet | July 12, 2011 at 10:37 PM
my heart breaks for your loss. hold on to all of your memories, remember all the secrets and stories you two shared, and all of the laughing. It will take a long time, but some day those good memories will overshadow what you feel now and will carry you through.
Posted by: fyfe | July 13, 2011 at 06:43 AM
I love you Vivs & I hope that you are okay. Lu was such a cute, funny, cool girl & she had an amazing friend in you. I'm so glad I was able to meet her & I hope that you get through this with love & strength. I don't know... it's just surreal. You're an amazing friend Vivs & remembering the laughs is always the best idea. She is still with you. <3
Posted by: CaL | July 13, 2011 at 08:57 AM
Love you vivs and I'm so sorry for your loss. Just remember the good times you had with her and know that she will forever be with you. Call me if you need ANYTHING! <3
Posted by: Lehua | July 13, 2011 at 09:51 AM
Thank you. This is so hard, but I know she would want me to be strong.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 10:56 AM
Thank you. It means so much to me.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 10:57 AM
Thank you so much. Your words really help and I know that in time it will get better. I have never felt such pain. xoxo
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 10:58 AM
Thank you.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 10:59 AM
Thank you. I needed this :)
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 10:59 AM
I was talking with a friend last night and all I did was talk about the good times Lu and I had. it really helped me and it made me smile. My heart hurts and I know that in time it will get better.
Thank you so much for your words.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 11:00 AM
I love you. Thank you for always being there for me.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 11:01 AM
I am trying to only think about the good times because if I don't I start to cry. I love you.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 13, 2011 at 11:02 AM
i'm sorry that you lost your friend. :(
it is so hard. my friend died in a car accident on sunday morning and i'm not even sure how to process it yet. also, there is nothing anyone can do to change it or make it better and that makes me mad. i just want everyone to know what a wonderful person he was. i loved hearing about your friend lauren and if you ever want to talk about her to someone, please know i'm here. :)
Posted by: amy lapi | July 13, 2011 at 01:52 PM
I am so, so sorry for your loss! I can't imagine how hard this must be for you. You're in my thoughts and prayers. Stay strong. <3 {{hugs}}
Posted by: Kinsey French | July 13, 2011 at 02:29 PM
I'm sorry about your friend. I am moving to New York too so you'll be in my thoughts and prayers ;0)
Posted by: Sara | July 13, 2011 at 03:36 PM
Oh, Vivianna. I am so sorry for your loss. I know that it hurts in all ways possible right now. I also know that it won't stop hurting, no matter the amount of time that goes by. I love you girl. I will be praying for you.
Posted by: Erin | July 13, 2011 at 05:12 PM
This is absolutely beautiful, Vivs. I can tell you had such a unique friendship.
I know this is in a completely different game than what you're dealing with, but my best friend just found out that she has 3 brain tumors & they aren't operating for another month. It's scary... beyond scary, so I can only imagine what you are going through.
Just know that my thoughts & prayers are with you. And you have a ton of friends that love you and are here to support you. You are so loved.
<3
Posted by: Haley Tyson | July 13, 2011 at 05:32 PM
I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine what you're feeling right now, but just know you're in my thoughts. <3
Posted by: Anastasia | July 13, 2011 at 07:24 PM
oh love! I am so sorry to hear about your friend. Lauren died on Sunday night, but I did not find out about it until Tuesday. I wake up in the morning thinking that this was all a dream, but its not. I went to call her at lunch yesterday and then it hit me-- I cant call her anymore. I am hear if you need to talk. We can go through it together.
you are in my thoughts. xoxo
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 09:16 AM
thank you so much.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 09:17 AM
Thank you so much. Let me know when you get to NYC.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 09:18 AM