Dear Lu,
As I sit here writing this letter to you there are tears running down my face. I cannot believe that you are no longer here. I cannot believe that I will never hear your voice again. I cannot believe that I lost my best friend today.
I wanted to write you a letter to tell you how much I love you, but I do not even know where to start. This has to be one of the hardest things that I have had to go through. I guess I will start with... I love you. You have been my best friend for a very long time and we have so many amazing memories from over the years.
1999 last year of high school: We were sitting outside out art class talking about tattoos and piercing. I said that I would never get anything pierced and you said you would never get a tattoo. Fast-forward 10 years, you have two half sleeves and your back tattooed and I had my belly pierced (took out 1 week after I got it done.) I did however; have my nose pierced for few years.
The time you fell with your blue jacket on: I think this would only be funny to us, but man, it was FUNNY! You had one of those puffy coats on and your hands were in the pockets. We were coming out of the store when you fell down. I looked at you on the ground and started to laugh because you never took your hands out of the pockets to break your fall. Lu, you know I would never laugh if you were hurt ;)
Your mean cat: That cat you had in high school (cannot remember her name. Fluffy?) She was the meanest cat in the whole world and only liked you. She would always attack me whenever I was at your house. I would make you keep her out of your room at night because I was so afraid to fall asleep with her in the room.
That little voice: Whenever I was feeling down or whenever you wanted to make me laugh you would talk to me in the crazy voice you made up. I should not say crazy because it was cute. It reminded me of Bobby from Bobby's World. You would call me up and say "Hello Bibianna"
Do not get hurt in San Francisco: You came to visit me in San Francisco a few years ago and you got hurt the first night here. We were out at a bar drinking with my boyfriend (at the time) and his friends just having a good time. We walked to the bar because I live only a few blocks away. I am not sure whose idea it was to do this (I bet mine,) but we decided to jump over some planters. We got to one planter and I said, “I bet you can’t jump over that one” and you said “ha! Just give me a running start” You jumped over the planter and hurt your ankle and you still thought it was a good idea to run the rest of the way to my house. The next morning you woke and your ankle was very bruised and we had to go to urgent care because you could not walk. As we were waiting to see the doctor, you told me that one of your students told you right before you left not to get hurt on vacation and I sent you back home with crutches. Once we got back, to my house, you could not find your shoe and I had to go all the way back to the hospital to get your shoe because you left it there. For the rest of your trip we had to stay inside my house and watch movies.
Is that Celine Dion: One Christmas when we were in high school my sister-in-law got me Celine Dion’s new CD (for the record I have no idea why she thought I would like it.) I came to pick you up at your cousins house (I think) and you get in the car and said “is that Celine Dion?” and started laughing at me. To this day I swear that I did not want that CD and you swear that I was singing along . Oh! You took that CD out and put in one of our favorites at the time a Bob Marley CD.
Oh, Sport: OMG! Remember the first time you drove my car (a CRX) that we called SPORT? You still lived across the street from my school, you asked me for a ride somewhere, and I said “yes as long as you drive”. I however forgot to tell you that I did not have power steering , when you went to go turn you could not and drove up the curb. We both looked at each other and started laughing. I hated driving my car, and I would always make you drive and even park my car for me at school.
You will forever be in my heart and I will never forget you.
I love you with all that I am and I know you felt the same about me. I miss you already, Lu.
xoxoxo,
Bibianna
I love you too. This is hurt like I have never felt before.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 09:19 AM
oh love! i am so sorry to hear about your friend. If you ever need anything just give me a call. I miss chatting with you. You and your friend are in my thoughts. I love you.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 09:20 AM
Thank you so much.
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 09:20 AM
I'm so incredibly sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through. You two seemed to have such a lovely relationship. Just keep thinking of all of the good memories. I'll be thinking of you.
Posted by: Holly | July 14, 2011 at 09:45 AM
This is so lovely!!!!! Thank You for honoring Lauren like this!!!!
I still can't believe she is gone but it makes me happy to know she touched so many people's lives and that she had such wonderful friends!!!
Posted by: Fernando Fonseca | July 14, 2011 at 11:13 AM
She really was the most special person to me. My heart.
Thank you
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 01:34 PM
I still can't believe she is gone either. Her and I have been best friends since high school. I am having a hard time knowing that I wont see her again. You are right-- she had touched so many peoples lives. We are all better people because of her. Thank you
Posted by: oh shoot | July 14, 2011 at 01:35 PM
I'm so sorry for your loss. I simply cannot imagine what it would be like for me to lose someone I was close to. My prayers are with you!
Posted by: Katie | July 14, 2011 at 06:24 PM
Oh, hugs Viv!! I'm so sad for you - my thoughts are with you, hun.
Posted by: Michelle Clement | July 15, 2011 at 12:56 PM
Oh my goodness, I'm so sorry for your loss. This makes me want to gather up all of my loved ones and hug them tightly. My thoughts are with you and I hope that you're being kind to yourself through what must be an awful time <3 <3 <3
Posted by: Kyla Roma | July 15, 2011 at 07:56 PM